word doodle number two, for you

dear you

i am moving
away
away
away
yesterday i started
packing
sitting on the hardwood
of my first
new york
apartment
filtering through
my nightstand
recycling
keeping
throwing
away away away
surrounded by cardboard
half-empty
half-full?
i found this mixtape
you made for me
"ultimate road trip mix"
ha
i had forgotten it
the track list tucked inside
i bet you forgot too
tears welled
i laughed
how can something i forgot make me cry?
stupid 
the radiator fills with
steaming hot water
trickle trickle trickle
i try to decide
keep
throw
keep
throw
away away away
play?
play

--

he had a black eye
now i have two
they're healing (i guess)
i don't even miss you
is the crazy part
i thought you were gone
from 118
i put you in an envelope
letters, notes, cards
taped it up
and shipped you
away
away
away
through the dead branches
of winter
every moment together
an answered prayer
child, have you gone crazy?
(yes and no and maybe)
i was
dancing in the birmingham jail
when i met you
(we were so young)
there's no rap on this goddamn mix
any
way
way
way
tuesday
ruby
goodbye
love me